Somethings happening, I’m not quite sure what it is but it’s in full affect. Before I start I would like to say that i’m sorry Tumblr I use you for personal relationship rants. I know that and I apologize.
..but anyways, I was sort of broken up with yesterday even though we weren’t even in a relationship and it did not hurt at all. Literally it didn’t hurt my feelings, my heart didn’t drop, I didn’t even come close to shedding a tear, NOTHING. I care about this guy and his feelings and what not but the fact that he didn’t want to be with me didn’t change an emotion in my body. Only made things a little awkward because I don’t have as many benefits.
When I think about the things that should be hurting my feelings such as the fact that the girl he want to go back with is a complete bitch who doesn’t care about anyone else’s feelings but herself. She is disrespectful and boushie (there’s nothing I hate more than boushie people) and she is not deserving of someone who would care and spoil her. Like am I so bad that you have to go back to someone of that kind? Am I not pretty enough? Maybe I don’t make fun of your flaws all the time and you don’t like that.
I’d like to thank my ex-boyfriend of 1 year and some change because without him I wouldn’t know what true heartbreak is. I’ve had true heartbreak first hand and it is not fun. I’ve been told all types of things about myself such as I’m not pretty enough, i’m not thick enough, I shouldn’t ever be angry, and I feel like after all that he’s put me through that there is no worst heartbreak until i’m about to get married. Maybe my future husband could have an emotional affect on me where I will be crying if we break up. But if he’s my husband then he’s my husband, and he’s not going anywhere.
Moral of this is, I think i’ve perfected the “IDGAF mentality” because I truly don’t give a fuck.
